It's been 2 months since I wrote anything in here. That's crazy! That's way too long! So in the last two months I lost communcation with eminem and started going out with Hansy again on Valentine's day. We broke up 4 days later. We got back together 3 days after that. The night we got together eminem texted me. That was a litle over a month ago. During that month he has been so nice to me. So sweet. Making me feel so special. Being there for me when Hansy wasn't. He told me he loved talking to me and I was the only one who cared. He called me the perfect girl and told me he wanted to be my man but he was afraid he would hurt me. Well, he already hurt me once before, so that's understandable. So I found myself in a situation where I love my baby who was treating me like crap still, but have super strong feelings for my friends ex who treats me like a princess and says all the right things. But eminem told me that he couldn't talk to me anymore because he couldn't have me. That crushed me. So on Friday I got super dumbass drunk and called eminem twice and he answered the second time I called and for some reason decided to show up where I was but I had already told Hansy to go because I wanted to see him. I knew they were both on their way but I didn't think that they would get there at the same time! Boy was I wrong! They got there at the same fucking time. Very stupid of me. VERY STUPID! Hansy didn't really care, but I think I got eminem mad at me. =( I really really miss him. I don't think he understood how drunk I was. I kept calling him, and calling him and sending him text messages and I do not even remember more than half of what I said to him. Seriously. No idea. I wish I knew, though. Anyway he thought I was psycho, I know. I was psycho, but I didn't realize it at the time. Something was very wrong with me. I think I love him or something. I fall in love very easily. It's a bad thing. I know. Oh well. It's a Gemini thing. I promise! =\
It's getting late. I'll write more tomorrow.
Bye

posted @ 1:43 am on 03.31.05