Hi kids! So! Update!
Hans came by my job yesterday to give me Christmas present. He gave me perfume. Burberry. Yeah. It's nice. It smells good! =D He stayed at the store for a while, which was ok becuase we were DEAD. I mean, worse than "end of the school year" dead. We had maybe 30 cutsomers the whole day. Crazy stuff. Anyway, I told him that he probably had to go and he said "not yet." So I told him "Wow, you actually have time for me." He just laughed. Yeah. He knows it's true. So he was hugging me and stuff. Emma saw and she told me about it. When he left they were all looking at me like I was a bad girl or something! I didn't tell him to go you know!
So anyway, today I went to give him his present. I gave him some Abercrombie jeans. They're really nice. And they looked really good on him. Yeah. =D So there we were. In his house. In his room. On his bed. And we're curled up in a ball facing each other. And he kissed me. Not a make out session or anything, but a couple of kisses here and there. Like he kept kissing my nose and my forehead and my cheek and my hand, and then he kissed my lips. And it was nice. And in my mind it was full of hope, but at the same time, I know that it's something that's never going to happen again. It's such a huge conflict for me. Inside my head. I have so many thoughts and they're all going crazy, trying to get heard, or whatever.
WHen I don't see him, I'm fine. It's when I see him that I miss him. Or when I talk to him. But then when I don't see him or talk to him I wonder what he's doing, or who he's with, or rather what girl he may be with. I guess it's some sort of territorial thing. On my part anyway.
Oh yeah, I just remembered something. He had me and he was looking at me and he said "mine." Saying I was his. I just looked at him, I didn't say anything. I was just secretly hoping that I was his. You know. But that's ok. I'll just give him his space. I know that's what I have to do... However hard it may be.
Well, ok kids, I guess that's really it.
Not much to say.
Work has been super super super dead!!!!!!! It's so boring!!!! I mean, I understand that they don't have projects on account of school being out and all but... It' so boring!!!
I went to see "Racing Stripes" today. It comes out in January, but we got a special screening because we work where we do and we're special... or something. It was really cute, though!!!! =D I like it. You should go see it when it comes out! It's about a racing zebra! So cute!
On a lighter note, I think that Albert likes me. He keeps calling me, and he keeps trying to hug me and stuff. And I haven't seen him hug anyone else. And he kept staring at me during the movie. It was quite weird. This is not good. I really hope that I am just paranoid. Yeah, 'cause that would really not be good! Yeah!
I wonder if Hans would care if Albert liked me and stuff... I think I should find out.
I kind of made him jealous last week, when I told him about this guy that I thought was hot. Oh my god, but the guy was hot for real, but I think that he's too cute for himself. So yeah. There's no go there. But I'm not shedding any tears, becuase I have found the person on which I'm going to have a crush on to forget about Hans. It's this Colombian kid that works at Blade. Yeap! I have a crush on a Blade boy! Finally dammit! I found one decent enough to have a crush on! Yeah, I kept seeing him yesterday. He's so cute! =D Ok! Gt over it dude!
I want the Daddy Yankee CD! But I didn't find it anywhere or anything. So oh well!
Ok, so for real that's all for now! Ok! Bye!

posted @ 12:06 am on 12.21.04