Drama, drama, drama!
You know, that's one of my favorite sentences. It explains everything perfectly. My life right now is just that. Drama, drama, drama.
Where to begin, where to begin...
Ok. Well. My friend was going out with this kid, and I guess she liked him, but I really don't know how much she did. Well, anyway, she had broken up with him twice before and lately she had decided that she did like him or something and she wanted to be with him, but he messed up and got her pissed off, yet again. So, during the process of this I developed a crush on the kid, because she would tell me all the things he would do, like call her to tell her he misses her, and I would wonder why my retard boyfriend (Hans) wouldn't do that, and other things I can't remember now. Because I felt so guilty about liking him, I kind of made myself like their therapist, telling her to work out thier problems and that she should like talk to him more and stuff and be more understanding. And I always defended him. Always. Even before I started liking him.
So today I was told by him that he was going to break up with her, and then he told me that he liked someone else that she knew. Bro, I was so scared that it was me, but he wouldn't tell me. So eventually I got him to tell me, and sure enough it is me. He likes me. A lot, supposedly. And the thing that sucks is that I like him a lot, too. But I can't do anything about it, because this is one of my closest friends. Of all my friends, this girl means the most to me. How the hell can I possible even think about doing that to her. And I feel so guilty because of the fact that I'm even considering it. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to think, I don't know how to act!
I am going to go crazy. I can feel my screws loosening.
Ok that's all. I needed to get that out. I don't have anyone that I can tell. Ay! Oy vey and what not.
Ok. That's all for now.
I have to be at work tomorrow morning, so really I should be asleep like 5 hours ago. Ok, bye kids!
WISH ME LUCK!!!!!!!

posted @ 1:34 am on 12.31.04